Life

Life is a strange process, in august i was a mess, i was source of pain, to me, to the people around me, to all the ones i care, i was not good, how can we let ourselfs reach a stage that you become such a mess???

its very complex, simple, and easy, you stop thinking, you stop see things as they are, you stop believing in yourself, and you start to think all the answers in our problems are one person!!!

its not like this, you cannot find happiness that you seek in others if you dont find it in yourself first, you cannot be a partner, a friend, a lover, a husband, wife, if inside of you there is no peace, no joy, no love for yourself, this is where we usually fail, we think the answer for all our issues lay with others, it doesnt, we need to be alone in a place and be happy, we must think..wooww, what a great day i had, life is great!!!

Life is process that you must find your inner peace, is it easy? no!!! its bloody hard!! we are bombarded by society that we shouldnt be alone, alone is bad, alone is because you are not happy, that you have no one...its not true, you need to look at yourself, and try to answer a very important question, can you be alone and still find joy in life? still smile??? if you can, then you are ready to be with someone, if you cannot be alone and happy, then you are not ready to be with others, maybe its a bit of a zen thing, but we need to be alone and happy to be together and happy!!

I am happy, i am getting a good chance, a bloody good chance of a great job, and i will move to the city of Anna, no, i am not going to chase her, i promise her, honesty, friendship, there is not agenda, no hidden motives, i hope she can understand, i need "pal", someone to talk, to laugh, to speak about things, a friend!!!

i am starting a new job, someday i am super relaxed, some other days, like today, after i read lots of papers, i am a bit scared!!!! but its a challenge, its a new thing, it will be good, it will be tough, but its a new start!! and this is the most important thing, a new fresh started!!!

life is not just add all the days we live, its what we do with this days, what did we do with our life’s, was i a good person? did i stand for the right causes? did i touch others? was a positive influence in others? did i love??? did i felt the love in my heart??? 

i dont know the answers for all of that, but i am sure, i love, i was loved, this is the biggest thing any one can say!!!! how many go through life without feeling, without find true love....maybe a lot more them we think, i found love, i trully did, its one of the reason this blog exist, it start as a labour of love, love touch me, and can say, its magic!! i regret nothing!!!!

life is about not regretting, its about believing in the future, its about be at peace with yourself, its not be afraid of taking risks, its about be good for others, its about God, its about family, friends, we should never forget, being alive is a super great thing!!!! make others smile, today i stop my car in a busy street to let a old lady pass by, she was surprised and happy, she smile to me, it the best moment of this week, a smile and great feeling, just being good for no interest, that is what we should all be living for!!! make others happy, with no interest!!! be yourself a source a happiness...be happy...be alive!!!