How can you tell if you trully love some one??? when can you say, i love this person, i love you!!! talk is so easy, we do it every day, we promise, we make bold statements, we make compromises, we say so many things....
and yet when the time comes...i was busy, it was not possible, i had a job...i had couldnt left my family, i forget, i was afraid...it was not the right time...and the list goes on and on....i am sure we all have been there...we all know what i am saying...there is a big different between just talk..and do...from a early age we learn to get priorities, to see there is different connections between you and others, that some people mean more to you them others...in our "sad" world, in the world we live today, we are told to think on us, to think about yourself before any other, and slowly we start to believe we are the centre of the universe, that others exist in our lifes to be there for us...
we are told, not to take risk, to be safe, to be follow the crowed...day by day we start to build wall, to be afraid, and we start to forget what is really important...
we all said, i love you, but how much of us really meaning that??? do we really understand what i love you means???
what this means...I love you???? i like being with you? you are attractive and i want to have sex with you? you are nice to me? i want to spend the rest of my life with you??? you are my soul? you are my light? you are my morning star? you are made me feel like the happiest person in the world even in my worse day??? i would die for you??? i would kill for you??? i will move the world for you???
what means??? for some people means just words, it just something you say...something that were said so many times that they meaning nothing, its just an expression, like good morning..or its sun today....they use for a purpose, to get what they want from others...it doesnt have any really meaning...it lost its value....love is no longer a feeling...a magic place...its a supermarket...a place you go to get what you need, and if you find a new supermarket with new things you move to the other person....
during my recent stay in my country i meet almost my friends, they all come to the funeral of my grandfather...and i ask them...do you love your wife/husband/girlfriend/boyfriend??? they all say...of course...sure...yes...and them i ask...what this really means to you??? what means i love you....and the most strange thing was they looking at me....roll their eyes...and a 10 to 20 seconds wait....to say anything....some answers...it means he is my husband...or she is nice...or....i am use to her...if you doubt me, try the experience yourself...ask one of your friends...when they are no waiting...and see what they tell you...how long they need to think before given you an answer...i dont say there is no love...of course there is...they are people in this world you trully love...this dont need time...they will start telling you why...in less them a second...and you will have to tell them after a few minutes...hey....i understand!!
if you ask me..what means...i love you...for me means..you are my reason to live, you are my life, my morning star, the light that guides me, you are my air, my light, my joy, the soul mate, you are my priority in life, you are gentle breeze in a hot day, make me feel special, alive... i could go on and on....
when you love some one there is no barriers, there is no.. its impossible, there is no reality, there is no stoping, you would move the world, you would walk into fire, you would do things that in a right mind, you would never even consider doing...when you are in love, this feelings make you do anything...there is nothing you wouldnt do for the person you love...
you may say...talk is easy...its easy to be here in this blog saying this...telling us, you would move the
world....i know talk is easy...but i am not just talking...i am would do exactly what i said...i done it, i done things that i never consider doing it, it did things i will never tell no one else, all by love...i learn my lesson...i also did like all others...i was thinking of me....me first...and i lose...lose the love...lose the person i care for...i saw the worse in people, i walk in places that taxi drivers would avoid...i walk in places that no person in the right mind would go...all for love, i know that i would have done anything for Anna, and she knows that...anything, anytime, any where...its not talking....
its doesnt matter if you are a kid, man, a women, single, married, if you are touch by love, if you are honest, if you are correct, you would move the world, if i was married when i felt in love with Anna, i would think well what this mean, what this would made me feel, i would not play it around, i would play any game, i would go fixed my situation, i will make a clean break, and them and only them i would risk everything for love, this is love, this is not being affraid, we all can fall for love when we dont expected, but how we deal with this feeling defines the person we are, so are cowards, keep living a double life, you cannot love two persons...i cannot, some try to forget, some fight to end, and even if the end is just pain, even if in the end there is nothing...you move the world, you love the other person with honesty, with full passion, you suffer, you lose...but you loved!!! so when i hear this excuses, i couldnt...it was not possible...it was not the right time....you didnt love....today i know...if i love again...i rather die following my love them stay home and live a "normal" for many years...
today i am track to lose the best feeling in the world...love...every day i keep walking away from Anna, every day my heart is more cold toward her...i am walking this path..its not a happy walk..its not the walk i wanted..but its the walking i am doing....this the path i am taking, and i stop looking back....is this better?? i am more happy??? no....but i can live better every day...but i dont have this magic power that made me do wonderful things, now i am centered on me, i still help others, i live with honor, with what is rigth, but i am not the most stronger person in the planet, i am not the most brave sould in here...why???? because i lose the feeling of love...if you trully love, you are the stronger, the most brave person...you will do anything for the person you love...you would jump in the sea even knowing that you will not make it...this is what love makes you....brave...imortal.....trully alive...
now my friends keep saying..at last!!!...its good for you!!!! finaly!!!! but is this so great??? is this so amazing??? to lose the feeling of love???? i dont think so....
so what is love??? what means i love you...if this person doesnt make you feel like the most happy person in the universe, that angels smile at you, that joy is always with you....if you are not ready to die, kill, do anything for this person...anything...really move the world you dont love her/him....and if this is the case...maybe who should be honest with yourself...and move on....
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