sunny day

Today was a perfect summer day, sunny, blue skies, hot, this amazing light, and its almost October but it feels like June!!! its a bit like i feel today, its like i am happy again, that my life is getting back in track again, its like the little pieces are slowly coming in to place!!!!

I have a chance of new job, a real job, a new challenge, a hard and demanding job, in a different country, in a different city, where you can start fresh, where you will have a chance to reinvent yourself!!! it strange how a new job makes you feel so good!!! it not the salary that is important, its not the fact that i know this is a 4 year job and them its over, hey, 4 years is a lot of time!!! lots of things can happen in 4 years...2007-2011, my life change so much so many times that its crazy, this new job is like a sign, its like a magic piece so i can rebuild the way i see myself, i have so many plans, things to do, places to see, i am planning to feel my time with walks, mountains, sea, gym, work, i look at the sun and blue sky and say, life is good!!!

could be better???? sure, it love life is always better, share a life and its always better!! but you can be happy with you, you can be happy just with you, your well being should never be dependent on others, you should be able to leave the bed in the morning and say...what a great day...if you are alone or not!!!!

when we have a just eggs and sausages we can make a super tasty lunch, we dont need to have lots of things to cook a super tasty meal, we just cook with what we have and eat it, and say, this was a super lunch, or dinner, the same we should do with life, enjoy what we have, take the massive advantage of it, be happy, see the light, come out, live life!!!

i am in this stage now, i happy, i am ready, to see my life moving forward, and i am ready to have kids, it strange in my recent travel, i was in a foreign country, and while i was waiting in the airport, i come across a job where they sold baby clothes, i would never even look at that in the past, and yet now, i stop, i look, i smile, and was almost tempted to buy it, i was thinking about the joy that must be to buy this things for your kids, i was there 10 seconds, but it was a revelation, it was a very intense 10 seconds, and i smile, i found happiness, not sadness, not despair, i am alone, i have not a person in my life to own i want to have a baby with, and yet i was happy, i was good, this was one of the best moments in the last months!!!

I left the clouds and dark stops, i am in the sun, i am enjoying the light, life is so full of surprises!!!!