Partner

I always consider I didn't need to the same things my love would do, i always think i should love her, and we could have our own separate hobbies or things to do, i did consider that we didn’t need to do lots of things together, love would be enough!!!

The funny thing is a relationship without a common goal starts to be two people living in the same space and sharing a bed....i wish i could turn back time, i wish this so much, every day i remember things, and know, today, how different i would do them, i would change so much in the past things i did!!!!

i try to create a common activity, something i always loved, we try, i didn’t read the signs, i didn’t share an activity, i was bring someone to a new activity, one did for ever, and no share, was not partner, insted i try to be a "boss" try to impose an activity in my love.

I would have been patient, start for the first things, like we were both starting, let her enjoy, let her learn, build a common love for this, ahhhhhh, it drives me mad today to think i could have teach her, could have bring this joy to her, and in fact i rush things, bring her to a situation where she was not comfortable, didn’t enjoy, and in the end she gave up!!!

I know today the value of sharing, I know that we should have a plan to share things, to enjoy things together, to go for walks, to run, to go to concerts, to have a common goal, i am not saying this because it sounds good, i am not saying this because i know that what my love would like to hear, i am saying this because is what i truly believe, and i am soooooooooooooooo sorry that i only learn this know!!!

life is a very strange process, i don’t want to be a better person for my "next" love, i dont want a next love, i want this love, i want to show to my love i am better person, that i can make her so happy, that i can be the man she deserves, a man she can love forever!!!! one will always be there for her!! one wno will never disapoint her!!

Live is about sharing, its about being a partner for your love, is about the joys of planning a new trip, a journey, a holiday, its about being there, about doing a walk in snow, holding your loves hand, and enjoying every moment of this time.

We all have hobbies, we all enjoying doing some things, but do you think this is worth more them your love? Do you enjoy more going alone to do something that spends time with your love??? if you think that, if you think you don’t need to share a life, then you better think how deep is your love, or how mature you are, and being mature doesn’t mean being young, or being new to relationships, you need to grow up, you need to learn how the other person is, and be there for her!!! She must be the most important thing for you!!! She is your love, never forget that.

Some days are easy them others, today i am having tough day, i miss my love so much, i wish she could be here with me, with her child, we could all be going to do something together, i miss her laugh, i miss her smile, i miss the joy and happiness of her child, it’s very tough today, very hard...

i know no one will read this, i know this is a empty page in book of thousands of pages, and i need to keep writing, so one day, maybe she will understand better how much love i have for her!!!! And pray so much for a second chance....