Honesty

Honesty, honesty is more them being honest to person you love, is a way of life, its a way you handle things in your every day, i am not perfect, far from it, i am not best person in the planet, i am annoying, i am sometimes to full of myself, but i am honest, and this is a thing that in your work, in life, it doesnt bring you a lot of "friends", but its a way you have to deal with things.

I learn this a few years ago, if you lie, even tiny lies, they come to hunt you back, you can lie to others, you can hide the things from others, but you cannot hide it from you, you know, i could have an affair when i was with my love, i was for 10 days in Egypt, and this girl from another country delegation was chasing me, all the guys in my delegation were saying go for it, i didn't, my love would never would know it, but i would know, and this is the key part, i would know, i wouldn't be honest to me, to my love, i told my colleagues, i dont need this, i have a women i love, i dont need this, they didnt understand, they say, hey, its just an thing, its a thing no one will know...why are you taking advantage of this??? two reasons, i dont need it and i would be lying to me and the women i love!!!

Honest is not easy, sometimes its eaiser to say a little white lie, like, but dont confuse things, you cannot base a relationship with lies, with games, a honest relationship is not easy, but its the right one,

I am honest to the women i love? yes, sometimes too honest! and maybe no honest...i told her everything i want from us, maybe it would have been easier to say, i am here for you, i am just your friend, and them use this to chase her, no, i was open, i was honest, i told here what i felt, this was a few months ago, yes honesty is not a easy process, but its the only way!!! maybe i should have told her, i want to be more them friends...i did, maybe i am not ready to be just her friend, i dont know....

When you love, pure love, you dont play games, you expose yourself, your heart, your feelings, its not easy, but its better, you should have no secrets, i am telling to my love all my hidden secrets, things i never told no one, some that are not even good for me, but i also can tell her, i never lie to you!!! its true, my love during a time think i had a online thing with a girl, that we were in a relationship before, i told her, we are just friends, and it was pure honesty, i never touch that girl, never, we are friend, we share a mail here and there, but that it, i dont love her, i dont to person of her life, she is a friend, like many others, she is not the women i love...

Sometimes we tend to better believe a lie that the truth, because people lie a lot, but if you are in relationship, i am not in a relationship, but if you are, please dont lie, tell the truth, if there is a issue, big or small be open about it, tell your partner, so you both can work it out, be honest, because if you are honest your relationship will be based in respect and trust, you can work out things, you can create a life that your kids can see as an example to follow, love is a complex process, we love, we stop loving, we love again, must people in this life would feel love for more them one time, and if you look back maybe you should be more honest!!! i fail here once, when my love start thinking about moving to new city, i told her, yes, i encourage her, i know it would be better for her, i know this, i also should have told her i was afraid, that i terrified, and i didnt, and try to play the cool boyfriend, that one you is handling the situation well, i was not, i was not happy at all, i am full of fear, but i never told her that, i was  not honest, would have made a difference? i dont know, but i never lie to her ever since, never, and i promise this to person, a person who help me, and its now dying from a terminal disease, i never lie to the person i love, NEVER.

i will be honest with me and her!!! ever!! even if this means that i have to take the hardest decision in my life and wak away...