Today i after finish my sport, i found a old friend, i found him by change in the bar of the place i do my sports, we went through high school together, and we were part of a close group that would go in holidays together and would chase the girls together, when we were in high school, sometimes with not with a lot of success, but we had fun!!! i didn’t see him for more them 10 years, i went to his weeding, i know his wife, know two of his 4 kids, i don’t know the two youngest ones, it was a pleasant surprise, we talk, and like in most of this cases we talk a lot about life, about what is happening, and i was talking, about my life, about find the beauty in women, a child, having a family and losing them, its guy talk so there is not a lot of details, it’s just the big picture....
them my friend start telling me, about the fact he is having an affair, he is having an affair with a office colleague, that this is 3 affair he had since he is married, he start telling me about how great he is felling that he has this younger girl, that he goes to have dinner with her, that he spend time with her in nice hotels, while tells his wife is either working late or went to outside his city on business travel, that her is making him feel alive, that she is doing wonders to his ego, but them he tells me he "loves" his wife, that he is not going to leave her and his 4 kids...and i am starting to feel pissed, annoyed, this is a very touchy subject for me....and i ask him, what do you say to the girl you are having the affair??? he tells me that he told her, that is marriage is bad, that he loves her, that he is thinking about living his wife....that she is the women of his life...that he just thinks of her...he starts laughing..and says...and she believes it!, i am getting real pissed...
I ask him how long this is going? Two years!!! this girl is being filled with hope, she is hoping one day she will be happy, and in fact she will be not, because she is being used, i don’t know if in intentional way or not, by my friend....and its the 3 time!!! he had already 3 other fairs since he is married!!!! and he was bragging about this...i look at him, i know his wife, i know two of his kids, what type of person had he become???
i left, i left, I don’t know this guy any more, what he stands for, is not what I stand for, dont know if can still be his friend, I don’t know, and i was thinking, what type of person can say to girl, a women, i love you, i will do anything for you, you are everything to me, make love to her, leave her, goes home to his wife and say the same, make love to her, like everything is perfect????? how can you change persons like you change a shirt?? How can you do that??? Oh yes i know there is thousands, millions of people doing this every day, but this doesn’t change the fact that is pure cheating and you are abusing the other person, and love is not!!!
how the girl or man, because this could happen to both, think, she loves, he loves me and yet it’s just an illusion, you keep hoping, you fight for what you think its love, and you are just being used...if you love her, them be with her!!! singular, be a man!!!! one love!!!
I never understood this, love is a feeling that is singular, you cannot love two persons, you can said it, you can try to lie to others and yourself, but you cannot really love two persons, you can only be true to one, the other will be a side things!!! For me there is only space in my heart for one, for one love!!! i cannot fall for another girl, doesn’t matter how amazing she could be, while i have love in my heart, i cannot, i just space for one!!
i dont understand how people say, i love her, but i also love the "other", sorry, no, that is not true, if you are able to say this you dont love none, you are lying!! love change you, i understand, you can be married, you can have a girlfriend, a stable relationship, and them you find some one....you feel love, if its love, true love, you will stop at nothing, you will not be having a affair, that is not love, that is lust, sex, call whatever you wanted, but its not love, if you love, you just want that person, you dont want any body else, that person is everything to you, there is nothing else....its so simple...
you will cut all the ties, you will do the right thing, you will need to be "single" to embrace love, love is a singular feeling, if you can say that you love two persons ...you love no one....
Today i am even more sure for what i feel, and see that you can say all you want, but lets say that you are in sinking ship, and you can only save one person...if you love is so simple, you dont even need to think, you know, its a instant, that is love....but if you look around, if you need to start thinking, maybe her...or her...or maybe me....them you dont love no one...how can you say that you love two persons??? you cannot, it’s very simple, you can only safe one person, you cannot say, I save them both, or half of each, or this one can be safe on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays, the other on the rest of the week, no, it’s just one, it’s just one person that you can safe, the same is with love...one love!!!! when you are truly in love, when face with this question, you will you safe? You don’t need to think, you say, I save my love!!!! Singular!! Love is for one!! And only one!!!
This is me, one love, forever!!! I hope she one day can know how much i love her, how much i care about her!!!
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